Nobody Taught Us to Quit

With spring officially being upon us, its officially baseball and softball season. Love love love the Phillies :). Make me real happy. April 1st :). I used to play softball and I used to love it. I decided that it wasn't worth it to play anymore. As I became older, it wasn't about the game as much. It was more about the politics and maybe college would have been different, but I decided to walk away. There have not been many moments where I think back and regret my decision.

I have still taken opportunities to be involved with the sport from umpiring to teaching. I've also played slow pitch every summer with my best friend, who is kicking ass playing up in Rhode Island. She hit her first two over the fence home runs of her college career.

I still go down to Walker Field and do my workout down there to get that feeling back that I had when I was a child. It's not that feeling about how much I love the sport, it's the feeling that everything is perfect. I have my friends and my family. I am happy and everything is going to be ok. But I have realized that I have other things give me that feeling. People, places, and little things. This is what they realized in the episode titled Nobody Taught Us to Quit and maybe that is why it's one of my all time favorites. Even though it was sad seeing the characters walk away from their dreams, you see them do it on their grounds and see that as they have grown up they have found things in their lives that are more important. They leave happy and realize they have a lot more living to do.

So, I am going to say that I walked away on my own terms. I love the sport and it is a big reason that I am the person who I am today. The sport has taught me many things about life that other people or things couldn't teach me. I will always owe the sport and someday hopefully pay back the debt that I owe.

I've Got Dreams to Remember

Being a senior in college is scary. I am old and I guess this is the first real time in my life where I feel like an adult. It could be because every other weekend I come home to work at my internship and at the gym. I also feel like an adult because I am starting to see my family members for who they really are. That is probably scarier than being a senior in college. As a child, you look up to these people and think they are perfect in every way. As an adult, you see them for their selfishness, arrogance, and their ability to not care about anything but the name brand things in the world. Things that they believe make them feel cool and important, but really they are nothing. Examples would be an expensive phone, expensive sunglasses, and an expensive car. I am not saying that these things aren't nice, but do you really need those things? NO! If you start wanting them more than spending time with your family, being happy, or finding love then something is wrong. REALLY WRONG! This sometimes makes me feel crazy, because I feel like everyone is wanting and getting these big expensive things that they don't really need. Then there is me who prays that I will be able to pay back my loans. Instead of thinking I am crazy, I am going to continue to work hard but also dream a little. I actually always wanted a blackberry. I have always had the old phones without the internet that were so stupid. My phone died on me this past Wednesday, and as I am at the store I was actually going to get another stupid phone. I would save the money, and all that other stuff. Then, I stopped myself and just did it. I have been really happy with it too :)

From now on I am going to make a list of things that I want to do someday. I'm sorry if they are boring and stupid, but I like them so that's all that matters.

1. I want to learn how to surf.

2. I want to go to North Carolina and see where One Tree Hill is filmed.

3. I want to run in some kind of race. 5K, Half Marathon, or Marathon. I'd really be happy with anything.

4. I also want to go to California, Boston, and Texas.

5. I want to go see the Cubs play at Wrigley Field, Boston play at Fenway, and San Francisco play at AT&T Park.

6. I want to go to Australia and back to Europe.

See you later :)

I Can't See You But I Know You're There

The weather is finally becoming nice. Finally....

I wore my shorts and my sweatshirt, and was still sweating walking up and down from campus. I have not been in the mood to go back to class, study, or do homework. This can be explained by two reasons. I am a senior at Bloomsburg and its spring semester. Even though I love the crazy little town, I think I am ready to be done. (I will miss it, which is a lot for me to admit) I also just came back from Spring Break and loved not having to do anything but go lifeguard at the gym.

So back to my day, I had to present this article which I did on the wrong topic. I also had to take a test for my Human Resource Management class. I could not study for the two reasons that were previously stated and because I was worked up all week. But, in the end, I think I did ok. Even though I don't deserve to do ok, I believe I did. Many people call this luck, but I have never believed that I was lucky.

I believe it is a couple people who are looking down on me. Some of my family has past away, and I think they are up there keeping an eye on me. Throwing me a break when I deserve it and helping me pick myself back up when I fail. I have a grandmother named Nana, an Aunt that I called Aunt Cathy, and a grandfather that I called Wello. I didn't know the last one as well because he died when I was little, but after hearing stories he always liked me. He saw something special.

Those people make me keep going. Those people, my family, and friends make me keep going and keep believing. I might have bad days, but I will smile again. I will love, laugh, and be happy again because those people make me want to be great. I hope you have those people, and if you don't find something that you love. Find something yourself to make you keep going. Be great! :)