You ever had that one person that changed your world? This person made you feel like a completely new person. He or she made you feel like you could do anything that you wanted. But the best part about this person is that they make it feel like it is all you. They did not have one part of this new found happiness. Some people are lucky enough to keep them forever or have a numerous number of them. Some people aren't so lucky and lose them. I think I have had a couple. I have lost some and kept some. It was hard to let them go and its worse now because we are strangers. I hear some things here and there but I don't know who you are. We have lost each other and thanks to some other things , I have become completely ok with it.
Except, last night when I had a dream. In the dream, we were so happy. All that mattered was the two of us, but at the end I stopped letting myself be so happy and left. I said that this wasn't real and that we aren't the only two things that mattered.I then brought up our past and called myself an idiot for getting caught up with us from the beginning. Our past matters, our present matters, and our future matters. Some things are unforgivable. Some times hurt never goes away.
But maybe I am wrong. Maybe everything can be forgiven for love and happiness. I was kind of upset with myself today because I had a dream about us. It scared me too, because I was so happy. I am not perfect and I am definitely ok with not being perfect. I make mistakes, but I am learning. I will put everything together one day.
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