Me!

I don't know if I every truly said anything about what I like, but I am going to do it during this post.

I am a girl who loves to work out. I have not been able to work out as consistently, but when I do I am a very happy girl.

I am a girl who loves her family and friends. They are crazy, but they are mine.

I am a girl who loves her television shows. I could watch television all the time. I have a lot of different shows, but my favorite will always be One Tree Hill.

I am a girl who is starting to fall in love with nice clothes, but have always loved workout clothes and sneakers.

I am a girl who loves summer. I love nice weather and I love going to the beach.

I am a girl who loves sports. The Phillies are my team and baseball is my favorite sport, but I appreciate all sports and all athletes.

There is much more that I love, but I want to tell you more about me. I am a dreamer, but I am realistic. I work hard, but I do it so that I can have nice things one day. I want to fall in love with somebody who understands me, cares about me deeply, and will do anything for me. I am not as tough as I seem. I get scared, I get sad, and I want to stop living sometimes. But, I keep going for that one day that is better.

I am probably similar to a lot of other people you know, but I thought it would be interesting to learn more about me. I love life and am truly blessed with what I have. 

Holidays

Hello,

I have not done this in a while, so I first want to say sorry about that. Second, I want to wish everyone a happy holiday. I loved that time with my family and even though its stressful, it is still the holidays. I felt strange this year though. I have been trying to figure out why, but I can't truly put my finger on it. It could be everything that I need to do and the future that I am about to start on. I think it is hope though. I have lost hope in myself. I have lost hope in the things around me.

I used to be a girl who believed in myself. I liked who I was. I understood that I was not one of those skinny girls who was perfect. I liked my weight, I liked my imperfections, and I liked who I was. I liked my personality, my work ethic, and my positive outlook on life. There are still some things that I believe in, but I have lost that acceptance. I have become one of those women who look down on themselves about how much they weigh, if their hair is behaving, and if their complexion is glowing.

I love what I am doing, but I feel that people look down at me because I want to work in sports. I should not care how I look, if I am perfect, if I am going out every weekend, what people think about my future career, and so much more. I want that back and this is why I am going to make changes for 2013.

I will:

1. Run a race
2. Lose some weight
3. Graduate with my Masters
4. Restore the faith in myself

This blog will help me do it. Stick around for the ups and downs!

Summer

You get a feeling during the summer months that you never get during the winter months. A feeling of endless possibility. A feeling of hope. A feeling of happiness. I have been getting that feeling that summer is almost over, which makes me so sad. I have worked a lot this summer, which always happens, but I had a good summer. I spent a lot of time with a special person who made me extra happy. I need to hang out with the rest of my friends more because its almost time for me to leave Millersville, even though I don't have a place where I am living. I think I am going to the beach for two weeks in August, which will be amazing. There is even a chance I will get to see the place of my where my favorite show shoots! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Summer makes you want to take a risk, a leap, or a jump that you would not take otherwise. You also get that feeling of missing something. Like you should of done more or kept something in your life for longer. There is a chance that it could not be your fault. Time could of changed things, but it doesn't mean that you don't miss it. The feeling isn't as important as the other ones, but it is still important. I am still excited about my future and what is coming this upcoming year. It still will never come to the summers.

Every Picture Tells a Story

Isn't that the truth? A picture can tell you everything. A moment can explain everything, and by capturing that moment with a picture you get that feeling again that you had at the moment. That feeling could be good or bad, but it is something that mattered in one moment in time. We don't always remember moments, but when you do it is a nice feeling. When you remember a sad moment, you are proud of yourself because you got through it. Of course, at the time it felt like the end of the world. When you remember a good moment, you remember how good it felt and how you are going to fight to make it happen again. I watched One Tree Hill this past week, and they talked about the River Court. They are trying to get rid of the River Court which has so much history to it. Good and bad history, but when looking at a picture of the River Court the memories start coming and there are so many that it is hard to stop. I want each picture that I look at to be a memory that makes me feel good. Good because I pulled myself out of that deep spot or because I was so happy.
PS- I am going to my first Phillies game next week :)

I Shall Believe

There are many people today who are angry, unforgiving, and hateful. I don't want to be one of them. People have different lifestyles and different beliefs. I want to be open and I want to be helpful. I want to make people happy, no matter who they are and what they look like. I am not the girl who has tons of friends, but I have a good amount. I have done everything I can to keep those people in my life. Those people aren't perfect at all, but they are mine. I just wish people would be happy for me that I have them. It is hard becoming older because you have so much to figure out and so much to do. You don't have the time to spend time with everybody that you want because of internships, jobs, and other responsibilities.
I know I have spoken about graduation before, but this should be it. I didn't know how to explain it, but I have decided that it was bittersweet. Its hard leaving the weird little town, that I thought that I would never love. I know my way around Bloomsburg and it has turned into a place which is comfortable. There is only a couple places that I am comfortable at in this world, and Bloomsburg is one of them. I am not sad to leave parts of Bloomsburg though. I will miss the gym and I will miss my work study job. I will miss certain classes, but many I won't. There are certain people and certain things that I am glad I am leaving there.
After the moment I received a case for my degree, I sat there and it was a strange feeling. I had the wind taken out of me because I knew that another chapter of my life was ending. It is scary and exciting. But that is the whole thing about life. One day at a time. One chapter at a time.

Graduation

For now I say goodbye to this chapter in my life. And I look forward to what comes next

What Is And What Should Never Be

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